comes the dawn -by. anonymous

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul.

And you learn that love doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open with the grace of a WOMAN, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain and futures have a way of falling mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.

And you learn and learn ... with every goodbye you learn

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Why?

Why look me in the eyes?
If you dont even see me

Why hold me in your arms?
If I'm not really safe there

Why make love?
If we don't have the ingredients

Why do you want me in the dark?
If I can bring so much light to your life

Why walk into my life?
If you already looking out the door

Why waste our time?
If it's so precious

When I'm alone

Pain in the pit of my stomach...
Started taking over my chest,
But i kept trying to push it away
...put the agony to rest.

Memories stop my breathe.
The tightness makes me feel like less.
Im having a conversation with myself
Cause i cant expect anything from anyone else.

I tell myself its temporary
But after so long the reality is quite contrary
I work to stay true to what ive always believed
One day we'll all be relieved.

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My apologies...

*To my family & friends*

Im sorry for my sharp tongue
Thank you for your kind words

Im sorry I can be harsh
Thank you for being gentle

Im sorry I am impatient
Thank you for your patience

Im sorry I can be weak
Thank you for giving me strength

Im sorry I can be cold
Thank you for your warmth

Im sorry I tend to be stubborn
Thank you for being open minded

Im sorry for being uptight
Thank you for your easy going ways

Im sorry I've been forgetful
Thank you for always remembering

Im sorry sometimes Im distant
Thank you for staying close by

Im sorry for the headaches I cause
Thank you for easing my pain

Im sorry for the way I can be
THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME BE ME.

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Mystery man

I didnt see you at first
But you left me clues
The puzzle isnt complete
The pieces left are only a few

Just when i think ive discovered you
You stay within the shadows
Maybe you're not meant for me to see
But I'm hoping that's not how it'll always be

I imagine our first embrace
Through your chest
I'll feel your heart race
Loves doubts will be put to rest

That's all in my imagination,
Happy beginnings of my creation

Do I say goodbye,
When we haven't even said hello?
I know who you are, mystery man
You're only a mystery to yourself....

Its not you... Its ME

Im sad when im not wanted
But did i even want to be wanted?
What is it im seeking
If im disappointed its not me he's seeking
Am i shallow for depth?
Or too ready to believe in my feet gettin swept?
It shouldnt hurt this bad
If it wasnt anything great
So im reevaluating my hearts fate
And making corrections
To avoid anymore painful rejections

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In a moment

Heart racing
Mind spinnin
Risk taking
Anxiety ridden

Thoughts screamin
Worries creepin
Plan schemin
Feelings keepin

Words disappearing
Scared dreaming
Love sharing
Soul bearing

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