On the other side...

Around the corner lies heartache,
A lost loved one,
And the pain from lifes disappointments.

At times I have...
Looked down and recognized defeat
Looked up to face failure
Looked around sensing doubt

But I can never forget
That on the other side...

I've experienced true love,
The birth of hope,
And enough happiness to revive my soul.

So I will continue to...
Look down with determination,
Look up and persevere,
Look around witnessing love

Derived Distance

Ive come to the conclusion
Your presence causes confusion
So I created the distance
Derived from your existence

If I can't have you all
I'll let this ship sail off
Cause FriendSHIP
Or RelationSHIP
this journey aint my trip

Im just being real...
This aint our true deal
But I need the space
To pretend its you I can replace.

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NYC

So when I said I miss NYC,
& I wore my I <3 NY shirt.
I was really saying I miss you
but nobody had a clue.

I was afraid to walk the streets we did,
cross the bridges we traveled,
take in the views our eyes saw,
and feel the things we felt together.

But I made it to the city!
& the thought of you...
Didn't leave me on the subway
in a state of pity.

Walking Contradiction

Scatterbrained Genius
Distractedly Focused
Punctual Procrastinator
Resentful Forgiver
Open-minded Traditionalist
Meticulously Messy
Talkative Observer
Dreaming Realist
Passionately Dull
Free-spirited Worrier
Simplistically Complicated
Empty Lover

...& I Accept that Questionably

Me..You...US?

You probably know
Im 23
Workin towards my Ph.D.
& in case you didn't know
I dont want to be 28
With no one to celebrate.

They say its lonely at the top
This journey would make anyone stop.
But maybe you can keep me going
Be the one to have my back.

When nobody gave me the time of day
and my feelings were always at bay.
I started to feel my love wasn't enough.
But i had it all twisted,
it was them who didn't have it together with they stuff.
Gave them a chance & they missed it.

No worries
It was nobody's fault
Some things just cant be taught.

I guess I'm just trying to say
I dont want you to be another one to walk away.
Maybe you can be the one to admire my drive,
and still stick by my side.
To see my strength,
and know deep down I need you.
To appreciate my love,
and never forget it'll always be US.

Nervous Confidence

My inner strength
Is my confidence.
My presense to some
Can feel rather intense.

Aside from love
I've always come above.
There's no other way
But in my heart i'm waiting for that day.

Since you walked into my life
I started seeing the light
You're the man worth the fight.

But you make me nervous
And if i tell you how i feel
I might find out what i'll miss.

You got me holding back
Afraid to overdue it.
I start to take a risk
But pull back and quit.

Timing is everything
You wanna be my everything?
Until you do....
I'll reserve the good for you.

Ignorance is bliss.
So remain my mystery
And i'll continue writing our story.

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Significant Other

Its always the one you least expect
The one you swore it'd never happen with
You flirt with the idea
But know it'll never be real

Before I could slow it all down
It was you clouding my mind
Making me realize
To my heart you felt kind

What feels so right
Always comes at a time so wrong
So I walk away
To keep you in my life

But everytime we speak
Our past becomes present
And overnight I dream of our future

I had this all figured out
But my mind is losing the race
And my heart's feeling victorious
As my tears run me off course

The pain of not being with you
Is killing me inside
But your the reason
Ive never felt so alive

There is no title for your significance
.......my significant other.

~Jessica E Vazquez

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